I just want romance

When you tell someone exactly how to love you and they refuse… do you stay or go? Do you wait for them to follow your unwritten guidebook, or do you allow them to love you in their own way? Does their love make a difference about how much you love yourself? Do you love yourself? Period. Question mark? I’m a hopeless romantic, forever. But I can’t expect all that I want from one person. So how I can I live out my own romantic vision of life? I step into the sun light, or at least open the blinds. I hang a suncatcher in the window so the room sparkles. I sit at my desk and write in my journal about the amazing things that are to come, and then work at it everyday until it’s reality. I unroll my yoga mat after years of looking at it, longingly. I allow myself to release the tension in my neck and shoulders - I should be proud it’s from working so hard, and yet it’s there because I’m relentless. How to live romantically? I take myself for walks, and get a cup of coffee and sit there and drink it without looking at my phone. I take the dogs outside and play with them, running around for hours on end until we all need a nap. I laugh! Imagine laughing alone in the yard while cars drive. Try it. Give yourself some romance.