Leave well enough alone.

I’m at a new point in life; one where I know who I am and what I want and what I’m good at, and I’ve always been in the complete opposite place. And now I’m like, what do I do? It’s always been go go go, living on the edge of life trying to make it happen. And I always did. I always do. And it’s crazy to think of hard how it’s been and to now be here and to still not know what to do next. And so I think actually what I need to do is nothing. Why change things that do actually work? Change what needs changing. Leave the rest alone. These are the things I finally have time to contemplate, after doing some wild thing like go to California and bring all my macrame with me, and sell hardly any of it there, and then not be able to afford to bring it back home with me. I am once again living on the edge of life in a fuck it sort of way. Maybe it’s a stage of grief they don’t tell you about, or maybe it’s a product of the grief and the process of the life being lost that the grief is from. If you are not sure what I’m talking about then you can read some other blog posts. But also I will go back to California… Happy Holidays and thank you for being in this space with me, in whatever capacity you are able to be. Cheers to a new year!