it’s me, it’s you

I’ve had a life-long goal of having a job where I could be myself. Tattoos, ripped jeans, personality, and all. It was something as simple as that vision, that has propelled me in the direction of that goal ever since the day I realized that it was one of my goals. It has taken a lot of pain and loss over the past few years to really get me to spend time with my thoughts. How do I want to live my life? Who do I want to surround myself with? What type of energy do the people around me give off? How do they make me feel? And vice-versa about myself. What are my values, and what are my dreams? What steps can I take to get there? However long it might take, I am always working toward living in my reponses to those questions. Although I will say, with a huge caveat, the time and dedication I have put in Vermont Macrame and achieving these goals, has most certainly taken away the time and effort that I should be putting into my personal relationships with the people I love and care about. I’m still very much working on my ability to create space for everything that is not this. But if I can, for a moment, go back to what I was saying: I know there is a lot going on in the world right now and it seems impossible to push through. One thing that has concretely helped me is this. In every shape and form of what this is, it has helped me get through the hardest things in life; things I wasn’t prepared to face. It’s been this that has gotten me through because 1. it’s me. and 2. it’s you.